- Always have at least one story in front of a pro paying market. Right now I have four.
- Finish revisions of Rock Gods and Scary Monsters and query that sucker by the end of the school year.
- Write my third "novel"--a dark thing I'm tentatively calling The House Eaters.
- Write at least one high quality story a month. Quality may require that I set the story aside for at least a week before revising--a challenge for this submission junkie.
- Give myself some breaks. I nearly chucked the whole writing idea last summer because of unreal expectations.
Some of the Blogs I ReadTM have discussed eliminated the end of month post. I'm keeping mine simple.
How am I doing based on those goals?
- I have exactly one story in front of a pro paying market right now. Have you seen how many are "on hiatus" or shut down lately? This goal might go the way of the dodo.
- Done and querying. I've sent six queries. No hits, no runs, no errors, not even a form rejection yet.
- Done and querying. Thanks to everyone who read and commented. I've sprayed on a fresh coat of paint, guided by the voices that haunt me and other clichés.
- I did write three stories this month: one flash and two longer pieces.
- I'm not tired of writing, but I'm tired of trying to sell my writing. I used to pour over Duotrope with a certain fire, trying to find "the market" for everything I wrote. Not anymore.
To elaborate on #5: I like to write (I think). Sometimes it is very hard. Sometimes it seems to come easily, only to look back at the work and realize what a load of shite it is. The sense of "wow" is still there, though. That sense of "gee, I wrote that?" Selling the work...isn't fun. Never really was. The rejections? Are they bringing me down? Not really. Not anymore. I just don't enjoy the mental energy spent researching a market/agent, preparing a submission, launching it out into the world, and waiting. Maybe I'm far too impatient for this writing thing.
Maybe I just need some tranquilizers.