Monday, July 23, 2012

The 3 AM Face Slap

Monday shook me awake before three this morning, slapped me hard, and asked, "What now?"

Yes, what now?

The funny thing about 3 AM wake ups... sometimes that's when the ideas happen. I haven't sought a story idea in over four months, and last night, a plot unwound in front of me as I searched for sleep. Look for one thing, receive another, I suppose.

But ideas don't just happen, do they?

I watched American Movie with a buddy of mine last week. I'd never heard of the film--a documentary about a low budget filmmaker in Wisconsin with all sorts of personal issues. But the movie isn't really about making a movie--it's about following dreams and making something happen, even if you lack the ability or resources to fully realize your dream, to fully make it come to life as it should. I've been there all too often with writing: the idea is there, but the words won't cooperate. Lately--at least until last night--the ideas weren't even cooperating.

I didn't look for inspiration in the dysfunction, economic turmoil, and alcoholism rampant in American Movie. I found inspiration in one man's (perhaps misguided) quest to make a movie, to realize a dream. As with many things in life, the final product did not do the journey justice. Is is the journey which matters, always. 

The inspiration came when I realized it's time to keep moving, keep writing, keep living. There are miles to go, and the forest is dark ahead, but I imagine mountain vistas, too, and the special dignity of blisters on my quite metaphoric road-weary feet.

Let's go.

9 comments:

Rabid Fox said...

Sounds like a cool documentary. I just saw my local library is ordering the Spurlock Comic-Con doc, so I put in a request for it.

I haven't watched a lot of docs this year, though that's due in part to my satellite provider being a @#$% and removed the best channels that showed them.

I'm almost done with TV entirely.

KSU Ladybug said...

Bring it, Aaron. I'm glad it's time.

Mary Rajotte said...

Happy to hear that, Aaron! You are one of my favorite authors and I look forward to reading what you conjure up next!

James Everington said...

Keep on keeping on...

Elizabeth Twist said...

Yes. This is good.

K.C. Shaw said...

Good! The road ahead holds marvels. Describe it for us in your stories!

Daniel W. Powell said...

Awesome...

Anonymous said...

I watched the movie Courageous last night and the part that hit me was when the father was asked when he was going to start being grateful for the time he was blessed to have with his daughter instead of dwelling on what he was not going to get to experience with her. When I awake at night or can't fall to sleep my thoughts never get me anywhere until I change to prayer. I am very glad you are inspired with thoughts of your next writing. A cup full instead of half empty. Keep writing!

Bernie Mack said...

"It's alright, It's ok Jesus told me so"