tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post3489862232532511753..comments2023-10-08T03:29:16.941-05:00Comments on Aaron Polson: For Mother's DayAaron Polsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15173267932358617304noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-30445766074111413532012-05-20T19:03:59.779-05:002012-05-20T19:03:59.779-05:00i was devastated by this post, and by the pictures...i was devastated by this post, and by the pictures of the couch aimee wanted. i found your blog through link from a friend, and it takes me right back to the days after my daughter was born. i didn't have postpartum psychosis, but i had postpartum depression that laid me low. i struggled for months to pull myself out of it, to be the mother i had imagined i would be, to step up and do what every other woman in the world seemed to be able to do without even trying.<br /><br />one day--december 13, 2002, it was a friday--i realized that i couldn't take care of my daughter anymore. i couldn't take care of myself. and i couldn't take the pain anymore. if it didn't change, and soon, i would have to kill myself. i loved my husband with all my heart. i loved my daughter so much it hurt. i would have done absolutely anything to protect her from harm. but i couldn't stand the pain anymore. something inside me had control of me, and i was convinced they would be better off without me.<br /><br />i was lucky. meds and help worked rapidly for me, and i made it through. it breaks my heart--truly, it hurts me--to imagine the scope of aimee's loss, to you and to your sons. i know that nothing i can say will ease that pain. and maybe it's presumptuous of me to try. but i will tell you anyway, that when i realized i might have to kill myself, it had nothing to do with my love for my family. if love could have saved me, everything would've been fine. but my thinking was so twisted by my illness that i truly believed the most loving thing i could do for them would be to release them. and i just couldn't hurt like that anymore. <br /><br />thank you for sharing your grief. what i've read suggests to me that you and your boys will be alright...but i'm so sorry you have to walk this road, and without the woman you love.vikkihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00349601188368950342noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-80109701128428477742012-05-17T22:18:15.581-05:002012-05-17T22:18:15.581-05:00That last line was the perfect summation...perfect...That last line was the perfect summation...perfect.Sara Vancilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14594766416286232308noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-12617022237003420912012-05-16T23:03:48.183-05:002012-05-16T23:03:48.183-05:00Oops, the comment above was from me (Kelli). The c...Oops, the comment above was from me (Kelli). The computer was signed in under my hubby's name.Kellihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03402644067301673803noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-20089950660027834012012-05-16T23:02:11.987-05:002012-05-16T23:02:11.987-05:00I'm glad to hear that it was a pretty good day...I'm glad to hear that it was a pretty good day. Staying busy with the kiddos is good. We think about you guys constantly.John McCoyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03807995119691647562noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-54944638601745556202012-05-16T10:01:44.383-05:002012-05-16T10:01:44.383-05:00Wonderful words, Aaron. I'm off to see my moth...Wonderful words, Aaron. I'm off to see my mother on Friday. She in a nursing home.Paula RChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05550276147711384895noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-15503125348604533222012-05-15T13:38:34.890-05:002012-05-15T13:38:34.890-05:00Word. <3Word. <3Kateyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05727622678452936037noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-5431986000735225792012-05-14T15:08:07.364-05:002012-05-14T15:08:07.364-05:00Kelli - I saw them this morning. Thanks. We had a ...Kelli - I saw them this morning. Thanks. We had a pretty good day yesterday, but I planned plenty to keep the boys busy.Aaron Polsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15173267932358617304noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-75995073643199984852012-05-14T15:02:55.824-05:002012-05-14T15:02:55.824-05:00Thanks for the Mother's Day shout-out! I was t...Thanks for the Mother's Day shout-out! I was thinking about your boys all day yesterday. We put more flowers out at Aimee's memorial for Mother's Day. <3Kellihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03402644067301673803noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-271981276234898442012-05-14T11:21:30.943-05:002012-05-14T11:21:30.943-05:00I learned of your blog through an email forward. ...I learned of your blog through an email forward. I've never heard of this disease before, so I thank you for sharing the truth and spreading the word. I'm so sorry your family has to walk this path - I know loss is horrible and hard and the opposite of what you want.Laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07634835006145070697noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-67041069113715676112012-05-13T17:38:16.971-05:002012-05-13T17:38:16.971-05:00Thank you for this post. Knowing what you have bee...Thank you for this post. Knowing what you have been through makes it especially poignant. Fatherhood will get its "day" in June...if only fathers knew how important they are to their children.janhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00034650034053143388noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-75025689832408014712012-05-13T13:42:58.138-05:002012-05-13T13:42:58.138-05:00I imagine your own mama is pretty amazing!I imagine your own mama is pretty amazing!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-70134515362179520012012-05-13T10:42:56.905-05:002012-05-13T10:42:56.905-05:00All I can say is I love you and the boys. Holding...All I can say is I love you and the boys. Holding you in my heart today and always.Saranoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-53073521518288590152012-05-13T09:36:06.271-05:002012-05-13T09:36:06.271-05:00Tears in my eyes here... thanks Aaron!!!!!! I hope...Tears in my eyes here... thanks Aaron!!!!!! I hope you manage to have a good day.Cathy Olliffe-Websterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12729578896443750402noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5604033530537822263.post-53676660025111950232012-05-13T09:15:47.282-05:002012-05-13T09:15:47.282-05:00Thanks, Aaron: ) Happy Mother's Day to sweet A...Thanks, Aaron: ) Happy Mother's Day to sweet Aimee.Lauren: )https://www.blogger.com/profile/13043741714920706428noreply@blogger.com